2012! It's the year that I never thought would come...but here we are! Barely getting our toes wet in 2012. Last year was good, but it's not really one I would put on record. There were so many ups and downs, that is just doesn't make the running for "Best Year".
This year has a good feeling that is coming with it. The weeks leading into 2012 were absolutely amazing, and I was not disappointed at the weeks following. So I can only imagine the rest of the year. I know there will be the bad days in between, you can't seem to get away from those, but maybe it's a subconscious resolution that I want to think positive, and appreciate where I am in life. Forgive myself for any mistakes that I am still holding myself to and move on. I have been so happy lately, and it's such a great feeling! I never knew anyone could be this happy!
The other night I was talking with a friend who was very down, so I gave her the advice I was given, and that I now live by:
Live each day, one at a time. Don't worry about tomorrow or yesterday...just TODAY. Whatever problem you have today, fix it and move on. Don't bring your problems to tomorrow because you're just going to get more and they will start piling up and suffocating you that next thing you know you're in a deep depression, you're unhappy, and you have no idea how to solve any of your problems. One of my favorite quotes that I always read from time to time is by Steve Jobs:
"For the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror
every morning and asked myself: 'If today were the last day of my life,
would I want to do what I am about to do today?' And whenever the answer
has been 'No' for too many days in a row, I know I need to change
something."
This is seriously the best thing I've ever heard. The only person who can fix your problems is you! Then you learn from your mistakes and all your problems and you know how to handle a whole lot more in life.
I Made a Resolution- Sea Wolf
"Well I woke up this morning
And I made a resolution,
I said, 'never going to sing another sad song again'"
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Runaway
I think in "Facebook Status". I have come to this conclusion recently. This means that every thought that gets processed in my mind, is in the form of a status that I would usually post. For instance, when I put "I think in 'Facebook Status'" I instantly thought that would make a good status...if I had a Facebook. The sad thing is, I haven't had an account since the beginning of July. You would think I would be over it by now. I will say it has gotten better...it used to be constant, but it is now down to a minimum, but nonetheless it still occurs. Stupid Facebook.
Raise your hand if you can believe it's already the end of November. My hand did not go up if you didn't notice. One more month and it will be 2012... some think it will be the end of the world, all I know is I'm turning the big TWO-ONE and I've been pretty much thinking my whole life that 2012 will never come. But you never know...a lot could happen in a month (and I do not mean for that to sound morbid). I'm more in disbelief because I remember last November like it was only last month. All month I have been thinking "On this day I did this..." and then I'm like "What the crap?! That was a year ago!". No super memory needed because time has gone by so fast there wasn't any time to forget.
Nothing too exciting has happened since the last time I posted. Oh, well I did go to Florida for a few days. That was fun seeing everyone again. Dashawnda got married, I got to go 170 mph down around Daytona Intl Speedway, I hung out with Chelsea and Joe. That's pretty much it. For being such a busy weekend, it was actually pretty chill. The worst part was all the airports, especially coming home where I had a 6 hour layover in North Carolina. Back in Utah, I pretty much just worked and went out in service. We had our CO this past week and he was absolutely amazing. I wanted to cry during some of his talks.
I'm hoping in January I will be able to make a quick road trip to Seattle for a couple days to kind of check it out. I want to move there ever so badly, so a friend of mine from Idaho might be going with me so we can scout out some potential places...even though it might be a very long while of us even moving out there. But I hope it works out. Then in March it's back to Florida for James and Ana's wedding!! Oh and there will be a lot of snowboarding involved between now and then!
Runaway- The National
Raise your hand if you can believe it's already the end of November. My hand did not go up if you didn't notice. One more month and it will be 2012... some think it will be the end of the world, all I know is I'm turning the big TWO-ONE and I've been pretty much thinking my whole life that 2012 will never come. But you never know...a lot could happen in a month (and I do not mean for that to sound morbid). I'm more in disbelief because I remember last November like it was only last month. All month I have been thinking "On this day I did this..." and then I'm like "What the crap?! That was a year ago!". No super memory needed because time has gone by so fast there wasn't any time to forget.
Nothing too exciting has happened since the last time I posted. Oh, well I did go to Florida for a few days. That was fun seeing everyone again. Dashawnda got married, I got to go 170 mph down around Daytona Intl Speedway, I hung out with Chelsea and Joe. That's pretty much it. For being such a busy weekend, it was actually pretty chill. The worst part was all the airports, especially coming home where I had a 6 hour layover in North Carolina. Back in Utah, I pretty much just worked and went out in service. We had our CO this past week and he was absolutely amazing. I wanted to cry during some of his talks.
I'm hoping in January I will be able to make a quick road trip to Seattle for a couple days to kind of check it out. I want to move there ever so badly, so a friend of mine from Idaho might be going with me so we can scout out some potential places...even though it might be a very long while of us even moving out there. But I hope it works out. Then in March it's back to Florida for James and Ana's wedding!! Oh and there will be a lot of snowboarding involved between now and then!
Runaway- The National
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Daydreamer
Procrastination is a disease that I have been dealing with for as long as I can remember. There were countless times I recall getting my homework done the day off, or waiting so long that I would remember to do it as I was walking into class, resulting in the task never being completed. Today it is acting up. My sister is in Florida and my mom is in Denver which means I have the whole house to myself. Unfortunately, my sister didn't even bother helping with cleaning the house or pick up after herself, leaving me a massive load of dishes that need to be cleaned along with the whole kitchen. So rude. I planned on waking up early and getting the house clean so that I would have the rest of the day to myself. Well...It's now 11am and I've managed to eat a bowl of Raisin Bran, brew a pot of coffee, watch the season premiere of Psych and currently watching The Green Mile which is about 4 hours long. I really should stop it and get to cleaning, but honestly, I absolutely HATE doing dishes.... I loathe the task to the depths of my soul. I would rather do any other task than do dishes.
On another note, I am in disbelief that it's already October. I know we count each day at a time, but sometimes I'm pretty sure we blink and it's gone. DON'T BLINK! (nerd alert). It's already snowed up in the mountains here and we've had a few days of 40 degree weather. I'm waiting for it snow just a little bit more up in the mountains so that the resorts will open up and we can go snowboarding! I'm not a fan of the snow but I have been waiting to go snowboarding since I went last in March. It's pretty much amazing....
Daydreamer- Adele
On another note, I am in disbelief that it's already October. I know we count each day at a time, but sometimes I'm pretty sure we blink and it's gone. DON'T BLINK! (nerd alert). It's already snowed up in the mountains here and we've had a few days of 40 degree weather. I'm waiting for it snow just a little bit more up in the mountains so that the resorts will open up and we can go snowboarding! I'm not a fan of the snow but I have been waiting to go snowboarding since I went last in March. It's pretty much amazing....
Daydreamer- Adele
Monday, July 4, 2011
Brand New Shoes
I deleted my Facebook.
It wasn't until I did this that I actually realized how addicted I am to it. Which is why it's probably a really good decision to get rid of it for a while. Every five minutes I reach for my phone to check the latest updates. Every time I get on the computer the first web address I type in is www.facebook.com. Actually it's more "fa" "shift" because I type it in so much it already knows where I want to go.
Today is DAY 1 of the social network detox. It's pathetic really. I want to know so badly what everyone is doing. But why? I honestly have no idea.
I did however want to share my wonderful hiking experience I just recently got back from (literally like 15 minutes ago). But I have this blog that rarely get's used, so I'll share it on here!
We found this random little trailhead over in Draper. Just expected to see some trees and rocks, you know the usual. But no, we get up there and find a cave, a creek and a waterfall! Plus, we found a really awesome place where you could see the whole Salt Lake Valley from! I'll have to post pictures later on. It was gorgeous.
We did have our district this weekend. I can't even tell you how amazingly refreshing it was! There was new information and of course the timely reminders that we need to hear again every once in a while (there was also a part on social networking which had a little to do with the deletion of my profile). Unfortunately it went by way to quickly, as it always does. Utah only has one district a year so we can't go to another unless we travel somewhere. But yea...amazing, that's all I can say about it.
Brand New Shoes- She & Him
It wasn't until I did this that I actually realized how addicted I am to it. Which is why it's probably a really good decision to get rid of it for a while. Every five minutes I reach for my phone to check the latest updates. Every time I get on the computer the first web address I type in is www.facebook.com. Actually it's more "fa" "shift" because I type it in so much it already knows where I want to go.
Today is DAY 1 of the social network detox. It's pathetic really. I want to know so badly what everyone is doing. But why? I honestly have no idea.
I did however want to share my wonderful hiking experience I just recently got back from (literally like 15 minutes ago). But I have this blog that rarely get's used, so I'll share it on here!
We found this random little trailhead over in Draper. Just expected to see some trees and rocks, you know the usual. But no, we get up there and find a cave, a creek and a waterfall! Plus, we found a really awesome place where you could see the whole Salt Lake Valley from! I'll have to post pictures later on. It was gorgeous.
We did have our district this weekend. I can't even tell you how amazingly refreshing it was! There was new information and of course the timely reminders that we need to hear again every once in a while (there was also a part on social networking which had a little to do with the deletion of my profile). Unfortunately it went by way to quickly, as it always does. Utah only has one district a year so we can't go to another unless we travel somewhere. But yea...amazing, that's all I can say about it.
Brand New Shoes- She & Him
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
We Call it Mattresses Underwater
So I wanted to let everyone know that I'm in love...absolutely, head over heels in love...with music. I've always known it, I have. But I didn't really appreciate my feelings for it until last night.
I was driving home from Provo (about 45 minutes from where I live) where I had just finished up a great hike and dinner with some new friends. The drive home really wasn't making me excited, I had a headache, I was tired and it was late. To make matters worse, my iPod died on my way there, and my favorite Taking Back Sunday CD (the only CD in my car) was scratched to a point that I would rather have listened to nails on a chalkboard. So what am I to do with no CD's and no iPod? My last option...the radio.
I never listen to the radio. NEVER. Silence usually sounds far more interesting than listening to the top 40's and the never ending commercials in between. But when you're about to fall asleep at the wheel, you do what you gotta do. So I turned on the radio, inviting the same repetitious beat to attempt to entertain my ears. First song that came on made me almost instantly regret my decision. I wanted to pull over and look for a straggler CD that had accidentally slipped under the seat and became forgotten. But it was late, and I was in a town that I didn't know so I endured through Kelly Clarkson from way back when. A few good songs came on that I truly enjoyed, you can never go wrong with Phoenix and Adele. But one song, that I haven't heard in years, came on, and it flooded me with memories. 'Apologize' by OneRepublic. It was a song that was so overplayed yet you always had to listen to it the whole way thru and of course sing along.
When I heard this song, I could remember the specific places I was at with certain people. I could remember the countless jam sessions we had to the song out in service. And I could definitely remember the time somebody turned the radio to a station where the song was just beginning and everyone groaning and complaining because we had to listen to it AGAIN. But I started thinking how it's kind of crazy how music can have such an impact. Sometimes it can be a good thing or a bad thing.
'Apologize' for instance had both effects. Only because it came out when I was having a great time in Florida, but it was around the time when I also moved to Utah. So I have mixed feelings about the song. When my iPod is on shuffle and 'Brat Pack' by The Rocket Summer comes on, I have no choice but to listen to it because it makes me so happy, no matter how much the song annoys me now! When I hear Red Jumpsuit Apparatus I instantly think about going to Vans Skate Park with the boys, and then heading to Jimmy's afterward with some Boston Market and watching re-runs of 'Ninja Warrior'. When I hear Sara Barrellis "Little Voice" album I cringe... I was obsessed with the album when we were moving to Utah. When it was my turn to pick the CD that's what I put in. I'm surprised my dad didn't throw it out the window somewhere in Georgia. I just get super uncomfortable when I hear any song on that album. I think of how miserable I was the whole road trip there, about a friend of mine that I can't talk to, about how lonely I felt. No wonder why I can't stand listening to it!! But when I listen to a certain song, it's just as if I'm reading an entry out of a diary, or looking into a photo album.
I love music for the very reason that it's my diary with no pages or words. No matter how many times I move and how many diaries and journals get lost in the transition, I will always have a song that will hold the images, feelings and even scents of a moment in my life.
Side note: Currently I have one song that is my obsession, and that is "Mattresses Underwater" by Colour Revolt. The band in general is amazing (I highly recommend to anyone reading this that they check em out) but the song is mind blowing. When you first hear it, you might not think there is anything special about it, but give it a few listens. It's a brilliant song.
Mattresses Underwater- Colour Revolt
I was driving home from Provo (about 45 minutes from where I live) where I had just finished up a great hike and dinner with some new friends. The drive home really wasn't making me excited, I had a headache, I was tired and it was late. To make matters worse, my iPod died on my way there, and my favorite Taking Back Sunday CD (the only CD in my car) was scratched to a point that I would rather have listened to nails on a chalkboard. So what am I to do with no CD's and no iPod? My last option...the radio.
I never listen to the radio. NEVER. Silence usually sounds far more interesting than listening to the top 40's and the never ending commercials in between. But when you're about to fall asleep at the wheel, you do what you gotta do. So I turned on the radio, inviting the same repetitious beat to attempt to entertain my ears. First song that came on made me almost instantly regret my decision. I wanted to pull over and look for a straggler CD that had accidentally slipped under the seat and became forgotten. But it was late, and I was in a town that I didn't know so I endured through Kelly Clarkson from way back when. A few good songs came on that I truly enjoyed, you can never go wrong with Phoenix and Adele. But one song, that I haven't heard in years, came on, and it flooded me with memories. 'Apologize' by OneRepublic. It was a song that was so overplayed yet you always had to listen to it the whole way thru and of course sing along.
When I heard this song, I could remember the specific places I was at with certain people. I could remember the countless jam sessions we had to the song out in service. And I could definitely remember the time somebody turned the radio to a station where the song was just beginning and everyone groaning and complaining because we had to listen to it AGAIN. But I started thinking how it's kind of crazy how music can have such an impact. Sometimes it can be a good thing or a bad thing.
'Apologize' for instance had both effects. Only because it came out when I was having a great time in Florida, but it was around the time when I also moved to Utah. So I have mixed feelings about the song. When my iPod is on shuffle and 'Brat Pack' by The Rocket Summer comes on, I have no choice but to listen to it because it makes me so happy, no matter how much the song annoys me now! When I hear Red Jumpsuit Apparatus I instantly think about going to Vans Skate Park with the boys, and then heading to Jimmy's afterward with some Boston Market and watching re-runs of 'Ninja Warrior'. When I hear Sara Barrellis "Little Voice" album I cringe... I was obsessed with the album when we were moving to Utah. When it was my turn to pick the CD that's what I put in. I'm surprised my dad didn't throw it out the window somewhere in Georgia. I just get super uncomfortable when I hear any song on that album. I think of how miserable I was the whole road trip there, about a friend of mine that I can't talk to, about how lonely I felt. No wonder why I can't stand listening to it!! But when I listen to a certain song, it's just as if I'm reading an entry out of a diary, or looking into a photo album.
I love music for the very reason that it's my diary with no pages or words. No matter how many times I move and how many diaries and journals get lost in the transition, I will always have a song that will hold the images, feelings and even scents of a moment in my life.
Side note: Currently I have one song that is my obsession, and that is "Mattresses Underwater" by Colour Revolt. The band in general is amazing (I highly recommend to anyone reading this that they check em out) but the song is mind blowing. When you first hear it, you might not think there is anything special about it, but give it a few listens. It's a brilliant song.
Mattresses Underwater- Colour Revolt
Friday, June 24, 2011
Rewind. Play.
I decided to start over...
I'm not one to just delete everything. Like most people I sometimes like to go back and read past posts. But the posts that I had on here were just a little too difficult to read. They were part of a time that I am trying to let go and move on. Life has taken such an amazing turn, it feels like a new start! So here we go...New Blog!!
I'm not one to just delete everything. Like most people I sometimes like to go back and read past posts. But the posts that I had on here were just a little too difficult to read. They were part of a time that I am trying to let go and move on. Life has taken such an amazing turn, it feels like a new start! So here we go...New Blog!!
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